Two Months Tomorrow

Tomorrow will be December 7th. Two months since she died. Not only do Fridays in general sit in my memory as ‘The Friday the police officer told me my daughter had passed away that afternoon’, but now there is also the 7th of each month that stands out for me. And of course there is … [Read more…]

Tree time

It’s up, not decorated – though the lights are on it (but not turned on)And two little thingies for my daughter. Read the original post and comment stream on Friendica

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http://godisinthewind.com/post/153749360236/lonelygodinthetardis-its-funny-the-day-you-lose This – spot on. 🙁

Disengage

When a life ends, it’s like the entirety of what they were returns to it’s source. The emptiness and void I feel is the Lack of Her. As she withdrew from here, she disentangled, disengaged from me. Her loss as physically painful as a part of my body being removed. Soon, I hope I will be … [Read more…]

Hardest Day

Or second hardest. First hardest I guess was when the police told me she passed. Yesterday was the funeral but so many people were there.. (200?) that i had little time to be sad. Or be anything. Just do, do do… and then we had open house also for any family or friends. But today … [Read more…]

Gone

So. October 7th of this year, my life changed. A police officer and some woman accompanying him came to my door about dinner time. They confirmed my name. They confirmed that I had a daughter… had. The police officer then went on to tell me : “I’m sorry to inform you but your daughter passed … [Read more…]

Anxiety

When I feel anxious, I don’t focus on why. I ask instead what it MEANS that I feel anxious. The answer? Because I CARE. Then I feel better. — George Takei (@GeorgeTakei) September 16, 2016